“Left at the precipice of bliss,
straight through the shallows of despair,
turn around,
and you’re half-way there.”
Although
a
proficient
and
prolific
sketcher
at
an
early
age,
circumstance
dictated
a
trajectory
in
the
sciences
and
not
the
arts.
And
so,
the
trek
unto
a
ten
year
career
in
IT
ensued,
seldom
if
ever
sketching
anything
other
than
crudely
drawn
figures
for
comedic
effect;
the
occasional
caricature
of
a
friend
or
teacher,
the
anthropomorphism
of
phalli
replete
with
accoutrements. You know, the usual.
Having
reached
the
pinnacle
of
his
profession,
Xé's
mind
capitulated
to
the
pressures
borne
of
expectations
and
repression.
He
was
in
a
quandary,
foundering
in
a
morass
of
borrowed
dreams
and
fervent
desires; the boy was a wreck.
It
was
then
that,
once
again,
the
circumspect
succumbed
to
the
impetuous.
Enveloped
in
music,
literature,
and
counterfactual
conditional
tenses,
the
muses
tore
away
at
the
dwindling
carcass
of
his
ever
fragmenting mind.
With
nothing
left
to
cling
to,
devoid
of
both
vocation
and
volition,
and
his
brain
functionally
diminished
to
such
depths
that
he
was
barely
able
to
conjure
up
grunts,
Xé
immersed
himself
in
the
canvas;
wanting
of
it
a
pristine
baptismal
pool
in
which
to
wash
away
all
sins,
or
at
the
very
least,
and this is the case, stain it with them.
Xé (zā):
It takes me a while,
but I usually respond.
Chico